14 May 2009, Posted by Cat in News, 67 Comments. Tagged

the age of reason


I turn 44 this year which is, arguably, the halfway point of my life. I have friends of many different ages, but most of them tend to be roughly my age or five years on either side of it. Thanks to the Internet and its various social networking mechanisms, I’m back in touch with many people from past years (and lives) who I’d lost touch with. I was once very close to some of these folks and I find it fascinating to learn what  they ended up doing with their prime years. Or not.

Mostly my friendships tend to be with persons of artistic persuasion. We all started off with dreams of grandeur and got hit pretty hard with the reality stick along the road. Arts is tough. Getting paid for it even tougher and making a living above the poverty line… almost impossible for most. Personally, I think I’ve adjusted to reality pretty well. I’ve negotiated a life in which I sacrifice salary for writing time without winding up in the gutter or doing a day job I hate. I’ve learned that I’m a real writer and my love for writing and reading grows all the time. I adore my colleagues and the spirit of community we all manage to weave from the threads of our passion. I’m not where I wanted to be when I set out on my road, but that no longer matters.

But it seems so many of my old friends have abandoned their dreams. Some replaced them with other more practical, attainable goals. Others got their hearts broken and let their dreams wither and die. Life gets in the way and life can be a hard task master.

Have you abandoned your dreams? Were they unrealistic goals or did it all just get too hard?


67 Comments

May 14, 2009 4:47 am

ashamel

I’m not quite sure what happened, but my dream seemed to just float away.

May 14 2009 04:48 am

Cat

does that bother you?

May 14 2009 06:06 am

jblum

As you know, I'm in the process of unabandoning mine.


As Dennis Wilson once sang, it's not too late. Course, he drowned five years later and never did finish that album, but even so...

May 14, 2009 4:52 am

kateorman

Still working on the (^%(&^ Hugo. :)

May 14 2009 04:52 am

Cat

good to hear it! But if you score before me I'm gonna scratch yer eyes out...

May 14, 2009 5:04 am

benpeek

i could sell you mine for a dollar?

May 14 2009 05:09 am

Cat

like I don't have enough cheaparse dreams of my own!

May 14, 2009 5:09 am

jack_ryder

Strangely, I fell back into the theatre career I started before I left Canberra – but at least I’ve narrowed down my particular area of interest.

May 14 2009 05:10 am

Cat

you certainly have!

May 14, 2009 5:32 am

strangedave

I haven’t abandoned any dreams, except possibly some that I decided were stupid. But some have been delayed by more than a decade.

May 14 2009 05:34 am

Cat

yeah. Some stuff takes so much longer than I ever dreamed it would.

May 14, 2009 5:43 am

doctor_k_

Early dreams, such as being an explorer, have been abandoned to the reality that I’m lazy, like my creature comforts, and don’t like bugs or humidity.

I have new dreams now. Probably still holding to the same theme of taking lonely far-off unexpected paths. I now dream of running away from home to live in Coober Pedy (not sure if Dave supports me in this dream).

May 14 2009 05:45 am

Cat

I think I'm on Dave's side with that one... too hot!!!

May 14, 2009 6:09 am

murasaki_1966

Well, I never did write that award winning picture book, but I got to be want I wanted to be when I was ten, so I’m happy (if stressed). Plus I’m learning a new skill. And, most of all, I found my life partner.

May 14 2009 06:10 am

Cat

well done!

May 14, 2009 6:25 am

jennyblackford

I’ll never be a Classics professor now, or live in Oxbridge. Or write that brilliant work of Indo-European religion and philology. Or be an archaeologist, or an astronomer, or a palaeontologist. (Perhaps I had too many dreams.) But I’m a writer now, which (as a kid) I always assumed would Just Happen. And I’m not doing computers any more (yay!)

May 14 2009 06:31 am

Cat

yes, you do seem to have clocked up quite a few dreams there...

May 15 2009 00:12 am

murasaki_1966

Funny, I wanted to be an archaeologist too. However, Time Team has cured me of that one.

May 15 2009 01:50 am

satimaflavell

Off topic, Jenny, but let's talk sometime about IE religion. I wrote a paper on it once, drawing heavily of Dumezil, although I'm not sure one can agree with his premise about the tripartite divisions of society being inherent in IE religion. Like, how else do you divvy up society, anyway?


Carry on dreaming. Medea is waiting for you:-)

May 14, 2009 6:34 am

martianmooncrab

I still have my dreams, but the body isnt supporting much of the labor intensive ones, I take them out and dust them every now and then. I managed to see most of the world I had read about, done quite a few things and met people who were interesting and stimulating. I dont think I will achieve any of them for now, but, maybe later I will do more than dust them off. I will set them free.

May 14 2009 06:36 am

Cat

I've certainly let go of things as my horizons broadened and perimeters changed

May 14, 2009 7:01 am

karenmiller

I have no complaints. I dream of kicking the CFS out of my life for good — I’m still hoping for that one to come true. But I dreamed of being a writer and I am one. I’m bloody lucky and I know it.

May 14, 2009 7:24 am

aidandoyle

My early dreams were writing and making computer games. I worked for a computer games company for 3 years. That was a lot of fun, but I wanted to try something different after that.
Travelling has been my main dream of recent years. I’ve visited more than 50 countries in the last 10 years and spent more than 2 years just travelling. So don’t think I’ve done too badly in that department.
Time to focus some more on writing goals. Going to Clarion South this year helped give me more determination to try and get a novel published.

May 14, 2009 7:27 am

satyapriya

No Nebula, Hugo or Pulitzer….yet. Gently working on them.
Living in Hawaii – working on it.
Astronaut – I still apply to NASA yearly, and the mongrels keep knocking me back.

May 14, 2009 8:07 am

angriest

My dream used to overwhelmingly be to become a professional actor in the UK. Now it’s 10 years later and I’m simply not in the position for that to be likely any more – older, fatter, working to provide for a disabled spouse, etc. I took too long to get going, life factors got in the way, and now I’m resigned to finding other goals in life based mainly around writing.

Does it depress me? Absolutely and completely, but on the other hand I have a beautiful and hilarious wife and really cool friends, so it’s not like I’ve exactly lost out by abandoning the dream.

May 14, 2009 8:27 am

king_espresso

My dreams have changed. Some attained, but as for the artistic and cultural side, I find the podcast incredibly rewarding except in financial ways. I now have an audience and feedback from on every continent except Antarctica and people in forty odd different countries listen to me wax passionate about old movies every three weeks.

It’s extremely satisfying and the audience is growing, and challenging me.

May 15 2009 00:13 am

murasaki_1966

I think I need to listen to your podcasts.

May 14, 2009 8:35 am

kathrynlinge

Hmmm… not sure I’ve ever had dreams of grandeur.

Which is either terribly sad, or just content-making :-)

May 14, 2009 9:31 am

lyndahawryluk

Growing up, I didn’t dare to dream beyond my means, which were meagre at best. Honestly I just wanted to be happy and safe and be independent. I’m really surprised at where I am, and am happy with 80%, so that’s pretty good I think.

It’s only been now that I am happy and safe and independent that I have dared to dream.

May 14, 2009 9:32 am

flinthart

Ha!

There’s no dreaming. Just doing, and being.

Somewhere along the line I managed to earn a black belt in ju-jitsu. That’s a very good metaphor right there: I’ve practised the art on and off for two decades. I never really thought about doing the black belt grading. I just practised the art because I liked it. And then one day they told me I had to grade…

Children? Same sort of thing. Never really thought about it, but there they are. Nice things they are, too.

I write because I like it. Publication was a surprise, but pleasant. I rather hope to keep doing it, and even on a larger scale, but if that doesn’t happen, I’ll still be writing, and still telling stories.

Maybe stories are what I got instead of dreams?

May 14, 2009 9:44 am

meljane

Still chasing my dreams and one would be acheiveable if I could get rid of a learning block or high jack another person’s brain.

May 14, 2009 10:28 am

chuckmck1

Dreamed of being a writer, and kinda got there, but I’ve since realised (and come to terms with the fact) that I’m probably never going to be a successful or brilliant writer. Now I dream of owning a specfic specialty bookshop, and have geared my daily life towards attaining that by the time I hit 45. Seems doable, touch wood. Goals are dangerous things for any recovering-depressive chronic underachiever to have. :/

May 14, 2009 6:47 pm

doctor_k_

The other dream I abandoned was that of winning a Nobel prize. Now I have my sights set on winning an IgNobel prize instead – a much more realistic (and possibly much cooler) goal.

May 15 2009 00:15 am

murasaki_1966

The IgNoble prize ceremony is certainly more fun.

May 14, 2009 11:01 pm

tillianion

I’m chasing the dream of being a writer now, and I’ve not abandoned the idea of being an actor but are just leaving it lie until the time is right (and I have the time). I used to dream of being cool, but there are just some things you can’t have :)

At the moment, a lot of dreams or interests seem to be returning to me eg dancing. It’s going to be interesting to see where my life goes over the next couple of years.

May 14, 2009 11:01 pm

kylaw

It’s time that you were moving on, the afternoon is past,
the leaves are whispering in the breeze and shadows lie askance.
A game can always be rejoined; all games are one, at last,
And to leave them guessing now will even up the chance.
Ask not how the journey starts, ask not where it shall end,
but know you are the Traveller, and that the road shall bend.

- The Traveller

(which has only been published in fragments)

May 15 2009 00:17 am

murasaki_1966

Is that one of your? Because it is very good.


I did want to be a poet. I still write poetry when it comes. But I'm not good enough for publication.

May 18, 2009 12:55 am

robynv

As you know, I’ve recently begun to work on my dream of becoming a successful author. I crossed a major confidence bridge when I began to describe myself as a writer, about a year ago. Whether I ever published THE NOVEL or anything else major is yet to be seen, but at least I am writing again after many years or not, which to my way of thinking means that I am a writer.
I achieved 2 other dreams from childhood quite unexpectedly when I was with my ex. I learned to ride a horse and lived on a farm (though my childhood dream of farm life was rather different to the reality of working on a cattle station).

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